I feel like im losing everything. Every friend,every soul that ever meant so much to me. Its my fault for being this way. But I dont think being around them makes much of a difference. Ive been rejecting every outing,every social get away. I feel very rimas honestly. I only like one on one sessions.Three is a crowd. Cuz Ive never learn how to converse or relate to someone new besides you.
For more than a decade. I only have one friend.
One friend that I grew up with.
But I can't help feeling desperately jealous with the other one in the picture.
I know Ive not been making an effort to meet up.
To shower you with the best gifts.
To be able to go out late at night and have supper at cool places.
Im only just the girl next door.
The most kental girl,inside out with nothing to give but just pure love.

I'm sorry.. I dont intend to hurt u or jeprodise this friendship in anyway. Ive been bottling things so deep..Bottomline is. Im jealous. And its all my fault. ='(