say goodbye to good old me. im changing for the worst. and i can feel it. i am ashamed of myself. ok. maybe not. im just turning into a bitter woman who is not sure of anything anymore. Maybe it would have helped me abit if you were'nt always keeping things to yourself. I know I am a very difficult person, and understanding is my flaw. I am trying my best to kick that habit. I dont know why am I being so hard on myself and on you, especially. Maybe because you've treated me way too well than others did and Im putting a high standard on you and is always expecting good things coming from you. I'm sorry. I'm just human and I've always had high hopes.

I know you're asleep now and I'm having this major headache. I still wanna meet you tomorrow and cuddle you and keep telling you how much I love and miss you. Despite the arguments and petty fights, I still love you dearly. Just keep assuring me that you'll do your part and I'll do mine. I still wanna grow till I'm 80 with you and have you still serenading me with Fall Out Boy songs.. :(