It has become accustomed to me when my body clock shuts down and I start working non-stop. I know I've not been having proper sleep since last week but yet, my eyes are still wide open, editing in the cold ass classroom till 10 and now back home, doing my presentation for tmr, cracking up ideas for the upcoming solo project and still thinking of a storyline to be email-ed to Chuet and screenwriting sigh...................................

I know I am tired. But yet I dont feel it. I know I'm sleepy, but yet I'm still wide awake. And now I'm getting excited discussing bout a topic over on msn with Ian. No. He is more excited than I am cuz soon he's gonna be a "Hollywood Star". lol!

Hmm..Ive been having problems with digestion. It seems that these days,whatever that I eat,it'll take at least a day or sometimes 2 days for it to come out. And that is not good. I feel heavier now. I want to be skinny again. I mean, for the fact that I already am, but I noticed that I've been going wider and wider and that sucks.

I still cant fit into the perfect fitted jeans. And I feel..yet again.. heavy.. :*( im depressed now. I know I sound shallow and friends out there will go like this, "WTH!! COME ON Ah SUE! YOU'RE DAMN ASS SKINNY LAH!!! IM LIKE FATTER THAN YOU SIAK SUE!"

wei..skinny was like fucking 4 years ago eh. now. not any more sia..
have you guys noticed my hips? my wide hips? my thighs?! thunder thighs! bulging tummy! and the boobs! dont mention them. Arman is damn lucky to have them on me ah. And everything adds up to me being sooo self-conscious bout how I look and that ain't good cuz I was never shallow like that. But then again, you gotta excuse some bimbo moments right? haha.