Her colourful eyes glitters when she smiles.
Her contagious laughter filles up my everyday.

Greeted by a hug every morning.
Waking up to her calls on some days when I just couldn't get out of the bed.
5 miutes..10 minutes passed.

"Sue cheebai! where are you!?"
"I'm walking to the bustop already..sorry2"

I couldn't sleep for the past two nights. Thinking and getting really worried.
A text came.

Never know what happened over night until you broke the news.
I was stunned.
Dumbfounded.

I choked on my tears. Holding back as much as I can.
No way. No fucking way. Why you? Why now. Why must it even happen?

I couldnt take it.
I broke down immediately as soon as I got home.

You know the bus ride after school without you?
It left me thinking how's the future gonna be like.
The empty seat beside me was overwhelming.


No . You can't leave me alone.
You can NEVER leave me alone.
The heartache eats me up. Tears trickled down.

I didn't sit on the right side.
It was reserved for you.

I have to be stronger than this.
So you'll never feel weak around me.
I'll protect you like a sister.
I'll take care of you like a mother.
I'll be your strength that will take away your tears, your fears.

2nd stage.
This heart aches even more.
Do you know how fucking paranoid I am.
Do you know I wish I could tie a chain around you so I can pull you along wherever I go.

Im not that strong after all.
But I have to. For your sake. I have to because I know you can fight it.
Even if you've lost faith along the way, I want you to fucking FIGHT it.
Because I'll be YOUR faith. I'll be YOUR pillar of strength.


I'll keep every strand of your hair that falls apart.
I'll tell you that you look beautiful every day. Because you are. Inside out.
I'll wish you good night and sweet dreams everyday.
I'll tell you that I love you so fucking much.
So much more than you can ever imagine.

I love you..I love you.and I can't bare to lose you..
and we WILL get stuck together till we get the Degree in our hands.
I swear we will.
You have to believe me.