we watched Moliere at The Picturehouse just now.
we were so shagged..too shagged..and we had to wait for 2 hours before the show starts.

i thought it was gonna be dreadful..tiring..boring.since we have to write an essay bout the film after that..
but it turned out to be something more than wat i could ever imagined.

it actually brought tears to my eyes at the last part of the film.
but generally,it was really witty and funny.heee..

and it kinda opened up my heart to really drown myself in film-making.and it seriously boosted some sort of motivational drive..
haha.
serious..tak bedek..

and..i was actually seriously thinking of going France to pursue in film making in the future..perhaps after my degree..insyallah..

sigh..

life has been so hectic. its sucha bore when all you do is get stonned when you reach home.too much things happen in school,and your brain just automatically shuts down when you're at ur comfort zone.

its sickening.how it made me feel so lethargic.and dumb.yes.i do feel like a MEGA BIMBO these days.trying to rush through deadlines and trying to get everything.EVERY SINGLE FUCKEN THING done by these 2 weeks.and at the end of the day,you feel so dazed.and numb.and fucking stupid cuz u overworked your brain.

and then there were days where you don't get enough sleep and wake up feeling all cranked up.and it last you the whole time you're out.and it affects your personal life and your social life.and whatever life that you're living.and you start feeling so irritated by everyone and you just either feel like punching their faces or turn your back against the world and just walk alone and take a breather.

and then there were days when you feel tat the world is against you.and no one understands you or rather they seemed like they don't give a shit to you.they did not pay tat much attention to you as before and you started feeling all fucked up and annoyed and insecure cuz you dont know if that person is bitching bout you or if that person doesnt loves you anymore or perhaps its just you who's having all these fucktations going on in your head that it starts affecting the way you think and the way you thought you knew what the person beside you is thinking.

which at this point,99 % of what you thought was going on isnt even true at all!

screw this.
look its 1.07 am and im dead bored.

and what ever happened to my life..
pfft.

as for now.i would really love to be in that fucking plane ,flying off leaving for France and not come back untill i feel like im even wanted here.

and whatever happened to happy conversations that last till the next morning and late night jokes that cracks you up and make you feel so high and light after all the SHIT that you've been through the whole day

that comforting voice.

where has it gone to.

loneliness creeps in every now and then.
1.22 am
nothing ever change.

and so i prefer to be living life without any form of connections unless its necessary.dont blame me.i happened to be put up in such situations over and over again.
how can i not resist being lonely than most people do.