Sometimes,some of the things that always happen to you dont happen anymore.sometimes,you see your other one do the things to another person of the opposite sex rather than to you.and they tend to spend more time .They will start to prefer seeing you in their clothes rather than your comfortable state.Checkered shirts are not my cup of tea cuz apparently i cant find any nice one yet.And wearing black lacy shirts make me,ME.
i love dresses and i dont get sick wearing them. i prefer slippers at times cuz they make my toes smile with glee and i love wearing my same old jeans cuz they are comfortable and basically well,they are the only jeans that i prefer to wear.i love Macbeth shoes because their cutting fits with my picky feet and NOT BECAUSE im a punkrocker/emofuck. i dress at my most comfortable so please dont choke me with your request of wanting me to look like the "Girl of YOur Dreams" that will never come to live.And yeah balls.I LOVE HOT PINK TO THE CORE.well,i dont expect anyone to even understand the crap that i've just typed cuz apparently i was born with a bionic complicated mind.well not really.maybe because i analysed things like how people dont.and i see and observe things and that is where i get oversensitived or rather,that is the cause of some problems in my life.OKAY..can anyone understand all that? i dont know..sometimes issit so difficult me being me?

i doubt so..

i feel it and i see it.and im starting to compare and i see the changes.im not insecure.
i just dont trust guys 100%.

thats my principal. FOR LIFE.


dont blame me for being a feminist fanatic.Its just the way that i was brought up,ive grown up seeing how much SHIT guys can give you.And just how little they give back to your act of kindness.

and i have too many guy frens and i totally see their flaws.ONE IS NEVER ENUF. there will always be someone better than their girlfriends.so ya' feeling me dawg?.

yeah balls.

another issue.
before my inmature cousin get beaten up by the wrong company,i DEMAND her to stop with the "PUNK" SHIT.

kau dah lah YP.takmo nak step punk please.kene rembat baru tahu.

kalau kau nye orang bangsa manja nak abeh spoil nak mampos,masih suka barbie doll tu smua,den STICK TO IT U IDIOT.! DO NOT BE SOMEONE WHOM YOU ARE NOT.kids these days...

another thing.

something is really bothering me.

no.not my boyfriend.

its something else.Dr Zul,come visit me soon. I need your medication. =) i love Zul.. a relationship is never a relationship if you dont go through obstacles.and also if you dont meet when you claimed that you and your partner have been together for 8 mths! hahah! (nie AYUKZ je tahu.sbab nie dia peh kawan baik peh story.hahha)

besides that,gig was fun.met alot of old friends.girl talk outside GAshaus.we saw modok.ee..and

yeah..rushed to ECP for my family outing.Midnight baru sampai seh.Ton sana.abis kat sblah kita tent matrep and minah rep.tapi dah kawhin nye ar.aku rase.dah ade anak ar.abis ang koh siao.abeh dorang ok ar..tak memekak.Yan memekak tu MAPLEK2 4 TENTS AWAY FROM US! MAPLEK TAK ABIS2 NGAN GENDANG DORANG.DAH KUL 4 PAGI PON MASIH BISING SIAK!

AKU SIMBAR CLOROX KAT DORANG BARU TAHU! BIAR SATU BADAN PUTIH.

CNY SUCKS OKAY.WHY?

cuz i waited for FUCKING 45 MINUTES FOR 21 THIS MORNING! ABIS TAK MUNCUL2! BINGIT SAK!!! and i was fucking late for our picnic ar.dorang hari raya,abis services mcm ciao chee bye! bingit siak.ok ar...bsok kedai2 pon dah start bukak.and i didnt even know that we will only be working till wed.hahaha

so dear..happy working tomorrow.besides that,the holidays were a blast! i just love my cousins TO THE CORE.! the 3 asswipes.and a missing designer.hahah. YEAH BALLS.