FUCK EMO LAH SIAL.FUCK EMO!


dont know why i just feel like typing tat out
maybe,because im already feeling quite pathethic.and super down.
i hate you,and you,and you and you
and everyone in this damn fucken world

i only love god

i hate this feeling,hate this feeling,hate this feeling
it makes me SICK!

why . why does my heart feel so empty.It feels like some asshole had just drained out all the emotions and sensitivity and EVERYTHING else out from it.
and i cant feel anything

Time and time again
this shit is getting worst

And I feel even shitti-er
Lapsed memories,lapsed memories,lapsed memories

Broken promises,contradictions and denial and IGNORANCE

i've been ignored way too many times..WAY TOOOO MANY TIMES.
From the first till now
The situation doesnt change

what the FUCK else you guys want from ME after practically going to the extra mile for all the bastards that had ever entered my damn forsakken world!

Isnt LOVE enough?!
Isnt ATTENTION enough?!
Havent i been trying to do everything,everything,EVERYTHING that I can and will do just to make u jerks HAPPY!

den if i get too engrossed with YOUR happiness,
den
WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS TO MINE!?

im a creature too. a homosapian.a gift from god.
I HAVE FEEEEEELLLLIIIINNNGSSSS!!!

FOR GODS SAKE!

i am sick and tired,sick and tired,sick and tired of being the one .the ONLY ONE that has to do EVERYTHING for your sake and not getting anything in return!

IS LITTLE TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?

DO i look like im high maintanence?
NO

Umpteen times have i spoken.
Im not a toy,im not a toy I'm NOT a FUCKING TOY!

Dont play with me when u feel happy
and dont chuck me aside when your day went fucked up due to some other reasons tat doesnt concerns me!

WHY.WHY.WHY! OH FUCKING WHY!
why does history repeats itself again and again and again and again and AGAIN

I see myself trap in this box before and NOW


why doesnt anyone appreciate all my kindness and thoughtfullness and all they did was to ask me to shut up and put down the fucking damn phone and ask me to go to sleep!

WHY .
DONT U KNOW U MAKE ME CRY EVERYNIGHT
Im sick and tired and sick and tired or crying

Does it take me to die right infront of your eyes and then will you realise that you need me
Doest it take me to have a knife run through my veins and cut the connections between these worlds


YOu make me suicidal
These pills.those pills.That pill.
My current medication is my antidote to sedate myself from the hurt that ive burried so deep in my heart.

How much longer must i suffer in silence
how much longer will you realise. . .